When River was alone in the kitchen, he said that word under his breath that he never used in this house. Then he whispered "shit" and gritted hard, regretting terribly for letting Declan have his gum. He stared at the coffee pot. It was still making coffee. He bit his knuckle hard as if he needed to stop himself some how from making this worse.
Here he'd been watching himself, closely. Trying to be good, he supposed. For the sake of Declan. However, he'd been watching Delcan, too. Every move he made. His mood. His lips. The way, Declan helped him in the kitchen.
River sighed as if he better get the coffee cups and act as if that kiss never happened. But it did. And his heartbeat tightened. He never let himself fall in love. Not this hard. Not this way.
"Are you all right?" He heard Declan behind him. River thought he might have jumped out of his skin as he turned to see Declan's gaze. He wanted to stop it. He did, but..he couldn't resist. He torpedoed into Declan's face with his lips and soon he'd smashed Declan into the wall. He kissed him hard, at first, but then passionately and slow as if it wasn't for show. As if Declan needed to know that maybe he wasn't all right, after all.
The kiss went on for several minutes. It went different places too. He wasn't sure if Declan meant to push him back. It felt as if he kissed him back, but River got rammed into the kitchen counter. Before he knew it, he was sitting on the kitchen counter. His legs apart. Declan between them. Kissing his lips as if he'd turned on a switch of some kind.
His fingers touched the satin of Declan's locks. It was as if he'd opened this new beginning that startled River as he smiled looking at Declan now as they took a breath. Here they went again. Happiness gravitated.
The doorbell rang. The sound was funny. Possibly, because River never heard it, before. No one ever came to the house.
"Should we get that?" Declan asked out of breath, searching River's eyes.
"No. They'll go away." River smiled slyly as he pushed the locks away from Declan's face. But the doorbell persisted. He noticed how raw Declan's lips were. He shook his head no, pulled him back. "Just let it ring. We're not home." He knew deep down Declan would not want anyone to see him this way. Besides, they had a lot to figure out.
Monday, March 19, 2012
Saturday, March 17, 2012
a blind moment
"So? Did he write anymore?" River pulled the book up in front of his face. They were sitting at the dining table and he was twiddling with his electronic cigarette all the while between his finger tips, and chewing Memento gum.
Declan noticed this must have been the fifth time River was reading The Outsiders. He probably had it memorized now.
"You mean she? S.E. Hinton is a woman." Declan told him.
River's eyes lit as if how could she had written such a book. "Really?" He put the book down and played with the cigarette more. "This makes me so sad. Of course, it would have been different if a man wrote it."
"What are you getting at?" Declan winced as if he hadn't a clue what was going on in his mind. They cooked together. Every night. They painted the livingroom a room which was bright and supposedly apricot, and their bedroom a dark mauve. The house was beginning to not look of his parents' ownership, anymore. The livingroom was sunny and River had taken a piece of plywood in the garage and made his own creation, which was bold and very abstract to cover the wall behind the couch.
"Nothing. I guess. You know, her words are so genuine and sincere. How could that possibly be from a man's point of view? No?" He thumbed through the pages. "I lived with a writer. Once. A novelist, he said. He thought he was amazing." From the looks River was mimicking, Declan supposed this person was full of himself. "But, he was moody. Jealous sort. He beat me, on many occasion. Sometimes, for no reason. As if I got off on that sort of thing. I left. But, didn't have any place to go." He was mute then. Declan could see the hate on his face.
"But you must have went somewhere?" Declan's eyes were wide open. "After all, you're here."
"Hahaha. You really are more witty than you let on, aren't you?" River let a little smile slip from the sadness, and his hand touched Declan's cheek. And Declan let him. Declan's eyes leveled with his as if it were a staring competition now.
River pursed his lips slyly. He kissed Declan, leaving his gum in Declan's mouth. Declan swallowed it before he knew it was even there. Declan thought he might die, but he didn't. River went to get them coffee.
Declan noticed this must have been the fifth time River was reading The Outsiders. He probably had it memorized now.
"You mean she? S.E. Hinton is a woman." Declan told him.
River's eyes lit as if how could she had written such a book. "Really?" He put the book down and played with the cigarette more. "This makes me so sad. Of course, it would have been different if a man wrote it."
"What are you getting at?" Declan winced as if he hadn't a clue what was going on in his mind. They cooked together. Every night. They painted the livingroom a room which was bright and supposedly apricot, and their bedroom a dark mauve. The house was beginning to not look of his parents' ownership, anymore. The livingroom was sunny and River had taken a piece of plywood in the garage and made his own creation, which was bold and very abstract to cover the wall behind the couch.
"Nothing. I guess. You know, her words are so genuine and sincere. How could that possibly be from a man's point of view? No?" He thumbed through the pages. "I lived with a writer. Once. A novelist, he said. He thought he was amazing." From the looks River was mimicking, Declan supposed this person was full of himself. "But, he was moody. Jealous sort. He beat me, on many occasion. Sometimes, for no reason. As if I got off on that sort of thing. I left. But, didn't have any place to go." He was mute then. Declan could see the hate on his face.
"But you must have went somewhere?" Declan's eyes were wide open. "After all, you're here."
"Hahaha. You really are more witty than you let on, aren't you?" River let a little smile slip from the sadness, and his hand touched Declan's cheek. And Declan let him. Declan's eyes leveled with his as if it were a staring competition now.
River pursed his lips slyly. He kissed Declan, leaving his gum in Declan's mouth. Declan swallowed it before he knew it was even there. Declan thought he might die, but he didn't. River went to get them coffee.
Thursday, March 15, 2012
nothing in the cards
Benny was beginning to think Spencer wasn't coming home with a new car. Keith and Spencer were at the dealership for an awful long time. As it was Benny was at Spencer's waiting for the big moment to arrive. Spencer with a new car.
Of course, Sage was making tuna sandwiches. Benny ended up eating a sandwich on rye. Honestly, he never ate other people's food, but Sage could whip up some pretty good stuff for a little white girl.
That's when Gage mentioned that he'd heard from Declan that River knew Noah. "I think he knows more, but he wouldn't tell me." Gage shrugged as he half looked at homework and chowed down on supper. They'd evidently talked while Declan was in the hospital, but Gage reminded him that Declan was a little groggy then. "Maybe River's really confided him, you know. Doesn't Declan look like the type that you could tell everything too?" Gage looked at Benny then.
"I guess so." Benny shrugged.
"I have this feeling Noah is not on the up and up with Spencer. And look at him, he wasn't jumping back to his place, or anything, was he? And they went on a cruise together. I mean..if it was so amazing...wouldn't they have gotten married or something?" Gage looked at Benny to say something.
"They got tattoos." Benny sighed as he slurped on his soda.
"Maybe I should see if River gotta tattoo with Noah." Gage smirked then.
Benny couldn't help but laugh. Yet, he felt sorry for Spencer. He didn't need someone like that in his life if Noah was bad news. If this was true....Benny, ordinarily didn't like mysteries. Perhaps Noah wasn't as perfect they thought he was.
Finally, they heard a beep from the driveway. Spencer rolled in with a Soul KIA. It was a dark neon green. Benny smiled when he saw it. At least Spencer had a new car. He knew Keith would battle it out, until Spencer got a real deal.
Of course, Sage was making tuna sandwiches. Benny ended up eating a sandwich on rye. Honestly, he never ate other people's food, but Sage could whip up some pretty good stuff for a little white girl.
That's when Gage mentioned that he'd heard from Declan that River knew Noah. "I think he knows more, but he wouldn't tell me." Gage shrugged as he half looked at homework and chowed down on supper. They'd evidently talked while Declan was in the hospital, but Gage reminded him that Declan was a little groggy then. "Maybe River's really confided him, you know. Doesn't Declan look like the type that you could tell everything too?" Gage looked at Benny then.
"I guess so." Benny shrugged.
"I have this feeling Noah is not on the up and up with Spencer. And look at him, he wasn't jumping back to his place, or anything, was he? And they went on a cruise together. I mean..if it was so amazing...wouldn't they have gotten married or something?" Gage looked at Benny to say something.
"They got tattoos." Benny sighed as he slurped on his soda.
"Maybe I should see if River gotta tattoo with Noah." Gage smirked then.
Benny couldn't help but laugh. Yet, he felt sorry for Spencer. He didn't need someone like that in his life if Noah was bad news. If this was true....Benny, ordinarily didn't like mysteries. Perhaps Noah wasn't as perfect they thought he was.
Finally, they heard a beep from the driveway. Spencer rolled in with a Soul KIA. It was a dark neon green. Benny smiled when he saw it. At least Spencer had a new car. He knew Keith would battle it out, until Spencer got a real deal.
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
its never too late
"I feel like I'm the odd girl out." Lucy glared at Sarah who picked her and Lux up to go shopping.
Things were changing, yet Lucy still felt she had to depend on others. Of course, Todd knew exactly where she was, at all times. That cell phone of hers was like a beacon. She bet he'd put a microchip in her if he could, just to make sure to know what she was up too.
"Well, you're not." Sarah told her. "I bet you never read either book, one's about girls and the other one is a lesbian novel."
Lucy just winced at Sarah, wondering what she was talking about her. It was like her to read more into what Lucy just said.
Lucy looked over the spring shirt tail dresses, wishing she could afford something new, but they were here to find shoes for Lux, who needed shoes for Lux to walk in. Although, she was only trying to attempt it with her fat wobbly legs.
"Its just, I have to do something. I'm going crazy." Lucy told her.
"OK, slow down there. You realize you have been to the psych ward. Just what are you talking about? Are you hearing voices? Seeing ghosts?"
"Its not about that." Lucy rolled her eyes.
"Thank God." Sarah sighed.
"I dunno if..if I'm smart, anymore. Maybe I never was." Lucy caught herself whining then. She didn't mean, too.
"Why would you say that?" Sarah pushed the car onward to the children's shoe department.
"Just look at me? I didn't even go to my high school graduation." Lucy looked as if she wanted to kick herself now.
"Lucy, the thing is, not to dwell on the past. OK? You can do anything, if you put your mind to it." Sarah shrugged.
Lucy went to pick up the little pink sneakers and measured them on Lux's socked foot.
"Like what?" Lucy fretted.
"You're very good with money. Maybe you should think about accounting." Sarah shrugged.
"Me? In accounting?" Lucy winced. That sounded absolutely boring to her. But she did book-keeping for Todd's salon.
Things were changing, yet Lucy still felt she had to depend on others. Of course, Todd knew exactly where she was, at all times. That cell phone of hers was like a beacon. She bet he'd put a microchip in her if he could, just to make sure to know what she was up too.
"Well, you're not." Sarah told her. "I bet you never read either book, one's about girls and the other one is a lesbian novel."
Lucy just winced at Sarah, wondering what she was talking about her. It was like her to read more into what Lucy just said.
Lucy looked over the spring shirt tail dresses, wishing she could afford something new, but they were here to find shoes for Lux, who needed shoes for Lux to walk in. Although, she was only trying to attempt it with her fat wobbly legs.
"Its just, I have to do something. I'm going crazy." Lucy told her.
"OK, slow down there. You realize you have been to the psych ward. Just what are you talking about? Are you hearing voices? Seeing ghosts?"
"Its not about that." Lucy rolled her eyes.
"Thank God." Sarah sighed.
"I dunno if..if I'm smart, anymore. Maybe I never was." Lucy caught herself whining then. She didn't mean, too.
"Why would you say that?" Sarah pushed the car onward to the children's shoe department.
"Just look at me? I didn't even go to my high school graduation." Lucy looked as if she wanted to kick herself now.
"Lucy, the thing is, not to dwell on the past. OK? You can do anything, if you put your mind to it." Sarah shrugged.
Lucy went to pick up the little pink sneakers and measured them on Lux's socked foot.
"Like what?" Lucy fretted.
"You're very good with money. Maybe you should think about accounting." Sarah shrugged.
"Me? In accounting?" Lucy winced. That sounded absolutely boring to her. But she did book-keeping for Todd's salon.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
in all honesty
Cory was trying to play this carefully. He just didn't see this working. Yet, Manny was being sincere and not at all fussy. It shocked Cory. He hadn't expected it. Of course, it helped that Gage and Sage being their earlier, like a buffer. There was lots of laughter and talk. They'd filled up on Allie's prize winning roast beef and other comfort delights. She'd even made an apple pie. It helped to have Angie around. Everyone wanted to be nice around the baby who'd finally got out of the hospital. Even if she had lots of doctor's appointments to get too, in the coming weeks.
But now they were alone. Cory and Manny.
"So..this Sage, that Gage has taken up with?" Manny made conversation that wasn't about them. "Who would have thunk it? I mean, this is Gage, we're talking about." Manny seemed to still be living in the past, but all the while he was checking out the mattress and the bathroom down in the basement.
There was just a shower and a toilet, but he seemed pleased with it. Although, the laundry room was next door to his room.
"Yeah, I-I knew Sage, from..from before." Cory mentioned, which a part of him wished he hadn't said, after he said it. He kept his hand at the nap of his neck.
"From before?" Manny winced.
"Yeah, she was a band roadie, while I was on tour. I went on a band tour last summer." Cory kind of smiled.
"Band roadie? You don't think she'd leave Gage for something like that, again, do you?" Manny asked.
Cory didn't think so.
"How about you? You gonna hit the road again?" Manny smiled.
Cory kind of laugh. He hadn't thought of anything like that, in a real long while. He looked up the stairway then. "I-I better get back to Allie." As much as he liked the idea of being on the road again, he wasn't sure if he wanted Allie to be alone with Manny.
But now they were alone. Cory and Manny.
"So..this Sage, that Gage has taken up with?" Manny made conversation that wasn't about them. "Who would have thunk it? I mean, this is Gage, we're talking about." Manny seemed to still be living in the past, but all the while he was checking out the mattress and the bathroom down in the basement.
There was just a shower and a toilet, but he seemed pleased with it. Although, the laundry room was next door to his room.
"Yeah, I-I knew Sage, from..from before." Cory mentioned, which a part of him wished he hadn't said, after he said it. He kept his hand at the nap of his neck.
"From before?" Manny winced.
"Yeah, she was a band roadie, while I was on tour. I went on a band tour last summer." Cory kind of smiled.
"Band roadie? You don't think she'd leave Gage for something like that, again, do you?" Manny asked.
Cory didn't think so.
"How about you? You gonna hit the road again?" Manny smiled.
Cory kind of laugh. He hadn't thought of anything like that, in a real long while. He looked up the stairway then. "I-I better get back to Allie." As much as he liked the idea of being on the road again, he wasn't sure if he wanted Allie to be alone with Manny.
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