Monday, May 16, 2011

its complicated

Sarah squeezed what little of a pillow she had on the thin bed that she now called her own in her mint green cell. She thought she might go nuts. Maybe she was already insane and didn't even know. Maybe she'd have to think going insane, to get out of this place.

It was stifling. It felt as if the walls closed in more, each day. A part of her felt already buried alive and she didn't even know what she'd done.

The questions would keep coming back to haunt her from those men in suits. She'd be left screaming in the end, "WHEN WILL YOU LET OUT OF HERE!"  No one had any answers for her. She didn't have answers for them.

Unfortunately, there was one thing Sarah had found out about herself. And she wasn't sure she even wanted anyone to know. It was the last thing she'd expected. At the moment, it was something she was keeping to herself.

Sarah rolled over and stared at the wall, wishing she'd wake up from this nightmare. There was nowhere to go. She felt closed off from everything. Would she even have a trial? Could they just do this to her? Lock her up and leave her?

She had questions too. No one were answering them, either. So when she got a call to come down to the visitor's center, she was sure it was Craig. What was the point of even going? But she guessed she had too.

"Casey!" She couldn't believe it was him, even behind a glassed wall. "What are you doing here?" She was thrilled yet still sad.

"I decided to call in sick today." He grinned. "How, you, holding up?"

"Barely." She sounded so breathless. "You didn't have to come." She was full of tears.

"I've been thinking about you." Casey barely got out.

"I thought all you had on your mind was married life." She tried to sound happy.

"Well, yeah, pretty much." He told her about Nina's new job. She envied Nina so much. If only she'd stayed with Casey, everything would have been so easy. She'd known him all her life. He was the brother she never had.

"I missed you." She broke down in tears. That's when she told him she found out she was pregnant.


molly said...

I think they are so wrong. Poor Sarah.

Through My Eyes said...

it definitely is complicated...

The Many Colours of Happiness said...

Oh poor thing!!!

ellie said...

I really feel bad for her.

Cafe Fashionista said...

My heart goes out to her. :(

Holly said...

poor thing!!